Baby Angel is turning two this September, I can't believe it has been two years since she was born. Two whole years of being a dad. I still don't see myself as a father, though it may sound weird but I always thought that I would be a kid forever.
Maybe I have Peter Pan syndrome.
Looking back, it has been an emotionally taxing year, everything happened so fast yet it seems to have dragged on forever. Reminiscing the day she was born, my wife was taken to the delivery room early in the morning around 5:00am. She was being prepped up for caesarian delivery, my mother-in-law and I waited nervously and excitedly for her. It was about 7:45 and the receptionist told us that we could go inside, she was delivered 7:21.
We went inside the hallway of the delivery room and there she was in an incubator. She was so small, I hardly saw any resemblance all I knew was that she's beautiful. We were only allowed to hold her through a glove like device at the side of the incubator. I felt her skin and touched her. Mama was crying. I felt like my chest was about to burst but I stopped myself from crying. Then they took her away.
Later in the day, we were all so excited to see her as she was displayed in the nursery. I was the first one who saw her, that was the time I cried.
Being a father was something I did not expect. I was afraid of the responsibilities it brought and also I feared that I won't be good at it and mess her up. All I know now is all you can do is try your very best. Even if you're best is not good enough just hope and pray that everything will turn out right.
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