LIFE: 2 years old

on Monday, August 29, 2011
Malapit na pala. Hindi ko napansin, ang bilis ng oras. Parang kailan lang nung tinitignan kita sa salamin. Akala ko hindi totoo, natatakot ako nun. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko ba, kung magiging mabuting ama ba ako sa iyo. Ngayon, ilang araw na lang at mag-dadalawang taon ka na. Hindi pa din ako sigurado kung tama ba lahat ng desisyon ko pero iisa lang ang alam ko sinubukan ko lahat upang maibigay sa iyo ang lahat ng kailangan mo.


My daughter, Sophia will be celebrating her 2nd birthday on September 12, 2011. She is sick. She has Cerebral Palsy, we found out before her 1st birthday that her brain did not fully developed while inside the womb. I cried. I did not know what to do then and I am still confused to this day.

We had her checked with all the doctors we thought she needed. She had all the necessary medical exams that they told us she must undergo, every time I saw her being injected and sedated I tell myself to control my tears. For a soon to be two year old baby, she had undergone more medical examinations than I ever did in my twenty five years of existence.

Now, we are at a cross road in her life. She must catch up with her development in order to fully realize her potential because some of her medical consultants are unimpressed with her progress. I pray to God that she be healed and be as normal as she can be, but I have accepted that this may never happen as she was born special.

I know in time, God will show me the real reasons for her sickness and I know that by that time I will be able to fully comprehend why my daughter was singled out.

For now, all I can do is wish and hope for her well being and happiness. In God's time everything will be revealed.